tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post261208928161179431..comments2023-07-05T04:04:27.849-07:00Comments on heart in the clouds: Caleb's birth storyLarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14724675337980390322noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-13336991203701295122010-11-02T12:08:43.477-07:002010-11-02T12:08:43.477-07:00I'll second what another poster here said--you...I'll second what another poster here said--your story brings me back to the room in the hospital that no longer exists (they decommissioned the hospital our first son was born in about four months after his birth and death), waiting for my partner to deliver our 19w6d baby, and being so shocked when he slipped out, our son silent and still, but so perfect and beautiful. We counted fingers and toes anyway, marveled at how exactly like his grandfather, for whom he was named, he looked, and wondered tearfully if he got that nose from the donor's side of the family.<br /><br />I haven't been able to write Stephen's story, even 3 years plus after his silent birth, but I'm glad you could remind me that the sadness and terror of that night also held wonder and a sort of hopeless joy.<br /><br />Be well.The Other Momhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09185896291460151212noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-41065090468556147202010-10-18T16:34:24.090-07:002010-10-18T16:34:24.090-07:00wow...going through pPROM right now. My water bro...wow...going through pPROM right now. My water broke at 13+5 weeks. I'm now in the hospital at 26+4 weeks, still living the unknown. Your writing is beautiful. What an experience. I'm hoping for a happy ending, but knowing what to expect either way gives me strength. Thank you for sharing. Your words will help me continue.kristinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02912749603327830496noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-43413504931857831132010-05-27T09:57:07.116-07:002010-05-27T09:57:07.116-07:00Lara, I'm glad you have been writing this blog...Lara, I'm glad you have been writing this blog. I was devastated over Caleb and what you two were going through. I didn't know how to best reach out to you - I felt very selfish for my own sadness as you and Chris grieve over the loss of Caleb. Your words invite us all in to share in the miracle of Caleb and I'm grateful for that. He picked wonderful parents and won't be forgotten by any of us.njnilsonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10098382295409612797noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-34654099893374808672010-04-16T12:51:33.332-07:002010-04-16T12:51:33.332-07:00I cannot get over our similar our delivery experie...I cannot get over our similar our delivery experiences are. I know the pain you've felt and anytime you want to talk, I'm here.<br /><br />((HUGS))MSChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10576390373925319237noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-86620862586926307372010-04-16T11:00:19.121-07:002010-04-16T11:00:19.121-07:00I am so so sorry. My heart truly aches for you. I ...I am so so sorry. My heart truly aches for you. I wish I could really give a long hug right now. Your sweet, precious Caleb knows his mama and daddy loves him. I'll continue to pray for you.Kristinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15321307434915264238noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-56386502991078393462010-04-15T11:38:11.849-07:002010-04-15T11:38:11.849-07:00This is beautifully written, and you have me in te...This is beautifully written, and you have me in tears. I'm so sorry you had/have to go through all of this. I have been thinking of you, and I will continue to send prayers.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-19880441408781154422010-04-15T09:57:40.656-07:002010-04-15T09:57:40.656-07:00You are such a strong women. Thank you for sharin...You are such a strong women. Thank you for sharing. You and your family will continue to be in my prayers.shayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17409781827352402620noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-56662512637363858612010-04-14T20:17:46.927-07:002010-04-14T20:17:46.927-07:00Lara, I've been following your story since you...Lara, I've been following your story since you posted on the Bump's high risk board. I tried to comment the other day, but Blogger was acting up.<br /><br />I just wanted you to know that I am SO proud of you for getting your story down on paper so soon....I am rapidly approaching my (stillborn) son's first birthday, and I'm STILL working on writing it all out. It is taking me forever....because it is just so hard.<br /><br />Reading your story tonight, though, brought back so mnay vivid memories....and not necessarily in a bad way. Oh, not that I relish remembering the crappy epidural, or the Cytotec induction, or how quickly I went from "wait and see" to haing Duncan between my legs.<br /><br />But your speaking of the wonder and awe of how perfect Caleb's fingers were, and how surprised you felt at the connection you were afraid wouldn't be there....I remember that all, too, and it is sweet.<br /><br />I only pray that it will be the same for you...someday. That you will look back on Caleb's birthday, and it will be more sweet than bitter.<br /><br />I just wanted to let you know that your post tonight meant a lot to me, and that you can take comfort in knowing Caleb's brief life has touched at least one stranger.The Writer Chichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15215717851386518982noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-89027017352122829772010-04-14T19:36:09.117-07:002010-04-14T19:36:09.117-07:00I also found this through The Bump. Your story is ...I also found this through The Bump. Your story is so sad and heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss. ::BIG Hugs::BBHhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13896241302116974983noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-28216527047744729402010-04-14T17:51:49.199-07:002010-04-14T17:51:49.199-07:00I am so incredibly sorry about the loss of your pr...I am so incredibly sorry about the loss of your precious son. I lost twin boys at 22 weeks in Jan of last year and can relate in so many ways. I was a member of the Sept Mommies of thebump and found your blog link there. We have all been keeping up with you and keeping you close to our hearts.<br /><br />I'm wishing you and your family peace as you grieve for your sweet boy.<br /><br />many *hugs*Courtneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11725206633751351133noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-82186012441776815882010-04-14T16:37:47.088-07:002010-04-14T16:37:47.088-07:00I'm so sorry. I understand how you feel as ha...I'm so sorry. I understand how you feel as having a similar story at 18 weeks.Mrs. Ghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07840698421204877733noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-16985162087963161912010-04-14T16:29:46.638-07:002010-04-14T16:29:46.638-07:00Lara,
I found your blog via your signature on th...Lara, <br /><br />I found your blog via your signature on the bump. What a heartbreaking and beautiful story... I am SO sorry. We lost Olivia after she was born, and didn't know "for sure" that she would pass away while I was delivering. I can't imagine the pain of going through labor KNOWING for certain that you won't get to raise your child. You seem like a very strong woman. Do ANYTHING you need to do to make yourself feel better during this time, and don't feel guilty about anything for even one second (i had a big problem with feeling guilty for having a happy moment). I'm so glad you got to spend some time with him. I saw the pictures that you posted on mc/pgl, and he was so precious.<br /><br />Take care of yourselves!<br /><br />BetsyBetsyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10664480324762808589noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-15135217660138089382010-04-14T15:46:56.859-07:002010-04-14T15:46:56.859-07:00Even though this ended in heartbreak, i'm glad...Even though this ended in heartbreak, i'm glad you got to spend some time with him alive and could feel him move! I'm so sorry, there are no words to describe it. I hope writing your story helped you, I know it did me. Thank you sharing your story.Elisehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08542187094982449205noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-71242723759408294012010-04-14T15:30:12.840-07:002010-04-14T15:30:12.840-07:00Lara,
You don't know me, but I followed part ...Lara,<br /><br />You don't know me, but I followed part of your heartbreaking story from the bump. Words seem so insufficient to tell you how sorry I am that this happened and how angry I get with the world and even with God sometimes. I will be praying for you, your husband, and for your son up in heaven.Me and Him He and Ihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11678045192448451102noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-33327429189417733792010-04-14T13:26:16.616-07:002010-04-14T13:26:16.616-07:00Oh, Lara:
I found your blog via The Bump. Thank y...Oh, Lara:<br /><br />I found your blog via The Bump. Thank you for sharing your story. You honor Caleb by writing it. Your sweet beautiful boy may have been here for an instant, but he WAS here. You will always be his mother. He will always be your son. And someday, when he is a big brother, his sibling or siblings will know how much Caleb is loved. It is unfathomable how painful it must be to miss him and to miss the future that he and you all have been robbed of--but I hope that someday you will be able to look back on his birth and take some measure of comfort in the love between you in those moments you shared.<br /><br />KimKimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14909509256806824111noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-55988391488749405302010-04-14T12:11:39.331-07:002010-04-14T12:11:39.331-07:00Lara,
I'm so sorry for your loss. There reall...Lara,<br /><br />I'm so sorry for your loss. There really are just no words that I can offer to soothe you right now. I will always think of you, Chris and Caleb. And remember, no matter what, you will always be a mother. You are Caleb's mother. Cherish that and the memory of your precious baby boy in your arms. <br /><br />With all my love,<br />LindseyAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10617947244130002057noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-79845959804503255612010-04-14T11:31:47.683-07:002010-04-14T11:31:47.683-07:00Somebody forwarded me a link to your blog and I ju...Somebody forwarded me a link to your blog and I just read it from start to finish. You don't know me, but your story really has touched me. In another life (one where we met via work or something and not due to a horrible tragedy), I could really see us being friends. I'm so sorry for your loss. Life really isn't fair - reading your blog makes that crystal clear. Take care of yourself. My heart goes out to you and your family...3Kids1CrazyMomhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05979902210264661854noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-26623458991911317112010-04-14T11:27:20.504-07:002010-04-14T11:27:20.504-07:00I'm so sorry.I'm so sorry.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-598656894277032862010-04-14T11:23:04.964-07:002010-04-14T11:23:04.964-07:00You are so amazing and strong. I know words can...You are so amazing and strong. I know words can't make the situation any better but heaven just got a little sweeter with Caleb. I'm so sorry for your loss. I am crying here along with you. Many prayers going out to your family .Ericahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09655545288711159145noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6602797632310731803.post-48899204296562559942010-04-14T11:12:52.056-07:002010-04-14T11:12:52.056-07:00This is beautiful, Lara. Sad and heartbreaking an...This is beautiful, Lara. Sad and heartbreaking and terrible. But also beautiful. Thank you for sharing it.Courtneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07769385010080141677noreply@blogger.com